Jump~~??

Almost every day I looked down from the second floor. When I looked down, I was thinking what will happen if I jump down from there, and the question keep on repeating the same almost every day. Now, I felt very down and disappointed for every that I've done. No matter how hard working I am, no one will sees it or cares about it. That's great... I doesn't belong here anyway. I wonder if I jump down from up there, will people care about me? Will they be honest to me, treat me as their friend? Maybe I should try it out someday, I think no one will cares about me if I died just like that after all...

Yeah~~ Keep on pranking me..

I'm so stupid to believe that people are starting to like me.. I mean at least they wont think negative whenever they sees me.. But in the end there are more people are trying to play with me, my feelings, the most important thing in my life. Yes, I do realize that I'm not that beautiful or cute, and my way of conversation is a little bit arrogant, but at least I won't play with their feelings or anything. I will treat them as a normal person.

Recently I can see that they start to play me. Just to make fun of me. Even I was eating crying to myself and keep on reminding to stay strong. But I just need some guide to help me go be strong, and stay by my side. I need someone that can keep on advising me, rather than just play with me..  For all this while, I am acting as an cheerful person, but deep down inside... I'm a sad, lonely girl with no one actually be with me. I thought I found someone, but the reality is, I was hurt by the words that person always say to me..

Now I'm just a living corpse...