Sorry for everything

I'm sorry if I ever said the wrong words to you...
I'm sorry if I ever hurt your hearts from words...
I'm sorry if I used the wrong words or ways to you...
I'm sorry if I really exposed something I shouldn't..
I'm just so sorry for everything..
Please forgive me..
And remind me if I ever doing it again and again..
I really appreciate it..
Thank you so much...

Jump~~??

Almost every day I looked down from the second floor. When I looked down, I was thinking what will happen if I jump down from there, and the question keep on repeating the same almost every day. Now, I felt very down and disappointed for every that I've done. No matter how hard working I am, no one will sees it or cares about it. That's great... I doesn't belong here anyway. I wonder if I jump down from up there, will people care about me? Will they be honest to me, treat me as their friend? Maybe I should try it out someday, I think no one will cares about me if I died just like that after all...

Yeah~~ Keep on pranking me..

I'm so stupid to believe that people are starting to like me.. I mean at least they wont think negative whenever they sees me.. But in the end there are more people are trying to play with me, my feelings, the most important thing in my life. Yes, I do realize that I'm not that beautiful or cute, and my way of conversation is a little bit arrogant, but at least I won't play with their feelings or anything. I will treat them as a normal person.

Recently I can see that they start to play me. Just to make fun of me. Even I was eating crying to myself and keep on reminding to stay strong. But I just need some guide to help me go be strong, and stay by my side. I need someone that can keep on advising me, rather than just play with me..  For all this while, I am acting as an cheerful person, but deep down inside... I'm a sad, lonely girl with no one actually be with me. I thought I found someone, but the reality is, I was hurt by the words that person always say to me..

Now I'm just a living corpse...

ただいま～～

久しぶりにブログを帰っていたね～　最近ホントに忙しすぎる、私もホントに疲れた。毎日の寝ることもタイヘンだ。今の気持ちは誰にも分からない。私、家に帰りたいな、毎日食べて、寝るって、遊んで、友達を見てて、それは幸せのことをと思うわ。

:-)

A smile is representing the happiness in the face and the good of mood that person is. But things can be changed through a smile as well. The smile that we got is actually not the true face of that person, it's the cover that have been made to make people think that he or she's happy.. The smile also the tears from the particular person. 

Dear God,

         I hope that you will give me the strength to face every problem well and make people accept me for who I am, what I am doing. Make them open their eyes to see the real thing instead of just making jokes with them..

SAD...

The point that i put this 3 broken heart doesn't mean that i have broken my heart 3 times, but the meaning was that i am the one making myself didn't succeed in love for 3 times. and now recently i got one more broken heart because i already realize that i'm in love with the wrong person, and very wrong for me to look at it. maybe the one that cannot be paste back into one piece again. I FELT SO SORRY FOR MYSELF, AND I WOULD BE GLAD IF THAT PARTICULAR PERSON DIDN'T KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THIS INCIDENT...

涙が綺麗のところ。。。

実は”涙が綺麗くない”と思った。
なぜなら私も分からないです。
でもね、最近、私の涙が降れてる。
寂しくない、でも、降った。

涙が振れる時、綺麗のところが見た。
綺麗の色と光。